Life

 It sure is crazy being me. I don't know if this is normal or not, but maybe if someone reads this they can tell me. Inside my head is so loud. It's like there's always an argument going on between me and other me. The two personalities are always arguing. There's a normal one, that's the one that controls 95% of what I do and say. And there's another one that acts more like a devils advocate. Everything that the normal one thinks or knows, this one contests. So it's like there's always an argument in my head. Like another me is vying for control of physical me. Trying to take control away from actual me. And actual me spends a noticeable percentage of his energy just trying to stay in command. I think this is the source of my anxiety. This internal conflict. I should be able to just be chill, but I can't, because even if nothing is going wrong, there's a part of me that's constantly in my head telling me that I deserve for everything to go wrong in my life. It suffocating.