The issue I’m having now is that what C brought up, I have little to no memory of, despite it only happening 2 months ago. So when she brought it up at first I said she was lying, because I had absolutely no hint of a memory of it at all. My close friend, who I’ll refer to as E, is hurt by the fact that I never told her about what C brought up. She had asked me if what C brought up happened and I told her no, because again I had/have no recollection of it happening, and all I have to go off of is a photo taken of me. So now that trust with E is weakened, but C and T are telling her more things about me, saying stuff happened or that I wanted stuff to happen within the past few weeks. Which I know for a fact is definitely false. Despite myself and E being close, I think she’s still hesitant to believe me because she thinks I was intentionally lying to her about the first issue. What I don’t think she understands is the C is only doing this to weaken me and E’s relationship, likely due to jealousy of E, because I care for E much more than I ever cared for her, and ever will. Furthermore T had only involved himself out jealously of me because he liked E for a long time and E never liked him back, and now me and E are much closer, in ways that he wished E and him were. Him and I also have past history that I think he’s still angry about and acting out of anger over.

I understand why E doesn’t see this like I do, she probably feels betrayed and lied to and thinks that I’ve been deliberately keeping secrets from her, and justifiably so. However I don’t think she understands how much I care about her. This whole situation isn’t stressful and anxiety inducing for me because I’m worried about what other people might think, or what C and T’s opinions of me are. The one thing is this situation that I care about more than anything else is mine and E’s friendship/relationship/whatever we are. I would rather lose every other friend of mine than to lose E. That’s why this all scares me so much, because I know E feels responsible to listen to everyone, which is just harming her perception of me. I know for a fact, from previous experience, C and T could go on and on for hours making stuff up and gossiping about anyone or anything, and because they both have person vendettas against me it only becomes worse. Both of them would have no issue texting E things all day, and they have a much easier role than I do. Usually it is easier to defend than to attack, but right now it seems like the opposite. I have to defend myself with facts, but they can make up their points and then defend said points with lies and Emma will never know the difference. It’ll be two versus one and she’ll most likely side with the two of them. But really it’s one versus one. T is just a puppet for C, all his information comes from her, and she has a habit of being manipulative and lying and then victimizing herself.

I’ve never done any of this before, but I also know how easy it is to fake Snapchats, and to add fake time stamps and such and I’m very worried that C and T will do something like that. I don’t think either of them are smart enough to think of something like that, but if I was in their position it’s probably something I would consider and that scares me because I know that E would never even consider something like that, and probably doesn’t know that it’s possible. Not saying that E isn’t smart, she’s very smart in her own way, but she’s too nice and not ruthless enough to think of something like that, and thus if they did try something like she wouldn’t even consider that it could be a fake.

I don't think E understands how painful this is for me. She says she doesn't entirely believe everything that T and C are saying, but I know deep down she does. It's hard because much of what T and C are saying is completely false, and they are unable to prove what they're saying as a result. But because they were right about something that I legitimately forgot about, they have all this newfound credibility that they're using to tear down my relationship with one of my closest friends. It feels like I'm guilty until I prove my innocence, but there's no way for me to prove that.. How do you prove that you didn't tell someone something. It's impossible, and I'm somehow expected to just "act like an adult and figure it out"

Hope your days are going better than mine

Drew