March 5th

Sometimes I miss not having friends. I grew up going to schools were "everyone is friends with everyone," and yet I still always managed to exclude myself in some way shape or form.  Perhaps it was all in my head. Maybe I did have friends and I was just overthinking and letting my anxiety take over and convince myself that I had nobody else. Either way I still miss those days sometimes. I didn't feel like I was responsible for caring what everyone else thought. Life was simpler, all I had to think about is what I wanted to think about, and I could let my thoughts wander. Nowadays I feel responsible for caring about what other people think a lot more. I understand why this is necessary for me to do, and I don't usually have any issues with it, but it is the cause for an increased level of stress that I sometimes wish wasn't there.

Drew